Natalie Update!

As I arrived at the hospital yesterday around 11:30am, I walked into Natalie's room, the doctor immediately approached me and told me that she had a wonderful morning, they did a chest x-ray, they found that her chest was full of secretions. So they were going to put her back on the oscillator (ventilator) which makes her body shake. She has been on this ventilator back in November. The doctor assured me that by using this ventilator will not have any harmful effects. I stood there in tears...thinking the worst. As I held my little baby's arms, I kept thinking, why? What's wrong with my little baby? Since her heart surgery, she has done great. Just the night before, her CO2 and O2 levels were wonderful! She was on the lowest rate on the ventilator. Soon they had her on the oscillator, drew some blood to see if the secretions were an infection, they put in 2 IV's, and she had a blood transfusion. They sent her blood to get cultured, the doctor spoke with me about Natalie having pneumonia, we should find out today the results of the blood cultures. The hardest thing for me to watch was when they drew blood or would put in her IV, she would cry (you couldn't hear it) but her little face would turn red and she would make the facial expressions for crying. It made me cry to watch her. She was getting quite irritated and kick her little tiny legs around. I thought to myself...its not fair, she doesn't deserve to go through this. My parents were also at the hospital with me, we said a prayer for our little Natalie. My parents left, I stayed to give my little girl comfort. I stood there watching her, as I held her hands as they put Fentanyl in her IV to help her with the pain. I just couldn't stop crying. I wanted so badly, for things be okay and for Natalie not be in pain. I left to go home, and pick Erich up from work, we immediately went back down to the hospital. She was stable and her levels on her blood gas were the same, so that was good. Erich took her temperature, and I changed her diaper. We stayed at the hospital for a couple of hours then we left to go home. On the way home, Erich and I were talking about how the road for Natalie in the NICU has gone so smoothly. We just never expected this. I know that with prayers we will be given comfort. We are so grateful that we can feel of the Savior's love and his guidance when we pray. Before we went to bed we called to get an update. Nurse Stephanie said that she had weaned her down to 55% on the oscillator. Way to go Natalie!